I am back

Assalamualaikum...warahmatullah...
brothers and sisters....we all love rasulullah....
our journey goes on, a journey for Allah....
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I am back....life's been quite testing in the last 1 year;
I am walking again, slowly....learning again to build my steps...
one after another. I still stumble and fall...
I've lost count how many times I've fallen flat on my face. Too many...just too many.
But I have to carry on....I just have to. For AAH.....especially for them.
I am walking again, hopefully will be running soon....
The SCAR is still there....will always be there I think.
But that's life. I just hope and pray that it won't reopened.
That it won't happen again.

The truth is, I still have nightmares.....
every night.....
but it's not the nightmares you get when you are fast asleep....no...

my nightly nightmares are at the point just before I fall asleep.
and sometimes in between sleeps as I wake up in the middle of the night....
and every morning just as I wake up.........
sometimes my whole body jerks,
sometimes my whole being shivers....

I wonder why....been wondering for a very long time.....

My guess is, those are the times when my guards are down,
those are the times when my consciousness waver, and my true soul surface,
those are the times when my conscious determinations to move on, to keep going, to.....when my conscious determination.....to live on.....falter.

anyhow, enough about me.

How have you been doing?

Live's good?

Remember always;

Why you are here....